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♥ *Effective from 6th February '09 onwards
The loner ♥
Name » Alex
Age » 19 ('10)
Status » Single
Gender » Male ♂
Birth Date » 20 / 07 / 91
Constellation » Cancer
Chinese Zodiac » Goat
♥ Emotional
♥ Sensitive
♥ Sensible
Wish upon a star ★
[ ] A joyful life ♥
[ ] Stop being moody ♥
[ ] A better appearance ♥
[ ] Excel in my studies ♥
[ ] Life would be meaningful ♥
[ ] Lead a better life ♥
[ ] Wouldn't be lonely ♥
It has been awhile since i blogged yet again i havelost the mood to do so back awhile. Many unwanted issues had occured over and over again. Why am i constantly making myself unhappy out of something which is not necessary. Grieving over something which is not even sure if it's there or not?
I just can't stop feeling the sadness sometimes where some people who are not to be named out there who is trying to leave a cut there because they know im sensitive. Trying to be tough by keeping a smile there for as long as i could but i wonder how long will that last. So many things to tell here but i just don't know where to start.
9 days ago was a birthday to remember as it marks the history of my life for the only the birthday which im upset. Expecting someone to remember my birthday, yet not even a text message arrive nor a belated message. Of all the people i would just hope that the person might remember but no.. I still remember the promise that the person made last year which is in the mid year, yet it all seems like a dream now. I just don't know what to say anymore.
Another friend of mine which didn't talk to me anymore out for a reason which i asked her about another friend of mine which has been missing for some time. I just don't understand why i've been ignored by her.
Having headaches over a virtual person which makes me spend time with her and also showing her temper to me and now finally ignoring me. It's like i have to tie up my life with her or so.. I don't know.
Sweet words aren't real anymore. They are just fake words to make someone happy. In the end everything is just an illusion. Don't ever trust virtual relationships it's very lame and it's suffering.
Parents started again with their crap ordering me to off my computer at 11pm and go to my room just because i've been sleeping late. I just don't know what to do nor say. Every action or word i say they would have a way to reflect it back with another offensive meaning.
All i could do now is to keep quiet, go on with life.. keep on smiling no matter how hard or panful it can be.. =]
Smiling outside.. but in the inside? Who knows. Even the closest ones to me which i presume they are, they are hurting me badly over and over again.
♥ Silent Tears
What has been written ♥ ;
『7/29/2009 03:26:00 PM』
Monday, July 6, 2009
Day by day fleetingly passes by, meaningless days just goes on and on like that. What is life to me? =/
I couldn't find a way to have fun. My friends are ... friends?
The only thing i could do now is to face the exams and also to stay close to my family and appreciate them while they are here.. Thats all i can do for now..
14 days to go~ (:
♥ Silent Tears
What has been written ♥ ;
『7/06/2009 04:04:00 PM』
