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♥ *Effective from 6th February '09 onwards
The loner ♥
Name » Alex
Age » 19 ('10)
Status » Single
Gender » Male ♂
Birth Date » 20 / 07 / 91
Constellation » Cancer
Chinese Zodiac » Goat
♥ Emotional
♥ Sensitive
♥ Sensible
Wish upon a star ★
[ ] A joyful life ♥
[ ] Stop being moody ♥
[ ] A better appearance ♥
[ ] Excel in my studies ♥
[ ] Life would be meaningful ♥
[ ] Lead a better life ♥
[ ] Wouldn't be lonely ♥
Sometimes no matter how much i want someone to realise its really hard to do so.. Is it that hard for me to explain?
Some people i played with are so damn dumb. Don't they understand the part which i say "I am new i am not good at this so please forgive me". Yet they treat me as if i know everything and just scold me with names and such all the way. I know your good at it, i don't have a single clue what the hell your talking about with your terms and such. Geez.. I really hate these people knowing themselves as "pro" but with shitty attitude.
Some other people i know just likes to push responsibilities to me as usual. Giving lame excuses and just push the responsibility to me whenever and whereever he feels like it. Yesterday he pushed me one task of his friend's at 1am+ while im rushing my homework? Didn't even ask me whether im free or not and just said thanks and walked away and gave a bunch of reasons saying his computer is lag or what shit and he was so free there.. I was really embarrased i couldn't help his friend out with his problem while im busy because he added me in msn and expect me to finish it for him as it has to be submitted by today.. I am seriously pissed with him..
Being used by several friends of mine for one reason or another. I'm really sick of these so called friends which will only appear and find me when they need my help and just disappear when im not needed. This is still okay.. But when i need their help, none of them care to help. Only just by entertaining me by accepting my requests. So far none of the tasks i ask that particular person do.. did it.. And all the requests from him are fulfilled by me eventhough i was very busy. What 'wonderful' friends do i have :D
The ones who read this would know who am i talking about, so you know i know is enough im not saying any furthur im really sick of this.. Not just one person involved in this article but a fe of them..
I am in near of giving up a few 'friends' of mine..
Thats all im saying today..
♥ Silent Tears
What has been written ♥ ;
『6/22/2009 11:36:00 AM』
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Undetermined mood, just don't know what to do lately. Some important things to be done but i just don't have the mood to do it. Mood swinging is very bad.. Loneliness is begin sipping into me again =/ Will try to blog more often again soon.
Take care
=)
♥ Silent Tears
What has been written ♥ ;
『6/20/2009 09:39:00 PM』
Monday, June 8, 2009
4th June 2009,
The 1st day of the tournament was a havoc. Everything wa messed up because we are lack of staffs and also our events are not well organized. Everything ended right in time though.. Until the time when it comes to the lab, the computers start to fail us by restating for no reason at all. Been wasting time figuring it out and finally everything went back to normal as the former event hoster is there to help us. The day ended with a tiring mood and also a pissed mood as someone had done something which made the entire staff group pissed. We had a meeting and i straight away screw him flat.
5th June 2009,
2nd day, everything seems fine. Until something wrong came up. There's a communication error which made 2 teams in a fight and also internal staff arguement over an issue. I started the issue by not updating completely my friend who is one of the team in the sittuation.. This situation is really hard as its a decision between which team is going to advance into the finals.. We wasted 3 hours discussing that matter. Took a decision but it was a wrong move and in the end we had to take the path which we have mistakenly taken.. Rumours and gossips start to spread around. My name has been officially tainted . Lecturers start asking me, even some unknown students start asking me. I've dragged my classmate, my friend into a mess and i had to take a drastic decision to disqualify him.. Which is painful and sad..
Had alot of arguements, i had too much of thoughts and i'm thinking too much.. Finally i had an emotinal breakdown and my tears couldn't stop falling. It's an embarassing moment. I have more to tell but i'm just tired and don't feel like typing any furthur today...
And i finally realised there's a few 'friends' of mine only responds to me when they need my help or once in a blue moon they suddenly talk to me and after getting something they disappear for the next blue moon. I just feel.. used.. Sigh.. I don't want to mention names.. They should know themselves..
Nights
♥ Silent Tears
What has been written ♥ ;
『6/08/2009 12:30:00 AM』
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
*Praying hard for the tournament to be successful*
Recently everything seems to fall apart as we are having problems almost every part of the tournament.
Things starts to work out yesterday as we are receiving a satisfying amount of participants but we're still lacking of.. We had also been offered a sponsorship from a company so everything went clear all of a sudden.
I hope everything would go as it is with a great flow with no problems at all ^^
Will be posting again soon after all these are over!
Wish me luck!
♥ Silent Tears
What has been written ♥ ;
『6/02/2009 05:29:00 PM』
