This blogpost is specially for the attention of my brother only.

The day when we met we started to be friends, as we continued talking more often, i felt very comfortable talking to you. Until the day that i decided to self proclaim myself you as my brother. I was just overjoyed to have a brother. I even edit my last line as a contribution to a great brother i had. Everything was fine. Couldn't be any happier. However, things started to change from time to time. Gradually, from last time we used to do such things aren't doing it anymore. We used to contact alot, till now we barely even contacted once like in 2 weeks? Even if we get to talk, it would only last for a few minutes and you would go missing elsewhere. Even if your msn is on, it would be away or just busy. Even if your msn is in the available state, most of the time you would not reply me. Either your out or not, i don't know i don't really care anymore either.

I've been really hinting you on this in my blog for so long. Yet, you never really realise. I was always hoping one day you would really understand what you are actually doing but it seems that my hope is just hopeless. I couldn't bare not to tell anymore. Since telling you through msn or sms.. You would just reply me a few words and then will not reply anymore or not even reply me at all. So writing here and ask you to read would be just fine.

Things arent the same anymore. You barely even online nor reply my smses. I sometimes even hint you through sms by changing it as a form of joke. You even answered your own actions that you are actually doing now. So for me now, having a brother is like not having one now.

I was just wondering all the time. Were you really serious in having one brother to look over to. You were always giving me the impression of just entertaining me and just for the sake of me asking you to be my brother. Even so, i find that you are more into sisters(meis) than a brother.. No wonder im not surprised that im the first to be your little brother. Your treatment towards sisters are totally different than the others. It shows that you don't really need a little brother.

Comparing on all the things you've done and how you'd reply me. All i can say is that you are ust entertaining me and just not being serious about it at all. Say it out if im wrong or maybe i didn't realise it but after so much of thinking i decided to write it here because i couldn't find a way to make me feel better anymore.

Previously, i've already decided to really give up on having a brother already, but a part of me still tells me to give you another chance to really show that you are a great brother to me. I've even asked around about you. I'm just trying to make myself feel better that you are actually a very great brother that im thinking you are.. It's because you are a great brother before but not anymore. You've really changed i can see it. And im also feeling like so extra ever since you had a gf already.

I know this would definately hurt your feelings as well make you emo but this is what im trying to tell you all the time. It's just because your my brother i couldn't hurt you this way and im baring the pain all the time (:

For now, i've really given up on this brother thing because i really felt its pointless to me already unless you have anything to say about it.. I don't think this is what we called as brotherly relationships as it's not even one in the first place after all this while on what is going on. Was hoping you would realise but you didn't as well. I should step out of your life since you had your gf to fulfill your life already you don't need a little brother anymore.. I hope you have a wonderful life with your gf =)

I know what you are going to do after reading this. Just forget such thing ever happen and perhaps would not even take this into consideration and just throw it away =/

Been waiting so long for things to change, yet everytime it ends up on disappointment..

Everytime when i think about this matter.. It would just make me so emo and sad because i don't believe that my brother is like this.. but im always telling myself that my brother is not like this he must have his reasons.. So im trying my best to smile all the time to keep myself happy (:

Dumping everything into my infinite space which is my heart again just like last time! =D

That's all i have to say though.. Will be waiting for your responce through msn / sms either way would do but im also predicting that you wouldn't respond to me anymore..

It is never too late to change things..