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The loner ♥
Name » Alex
Age » 19 ('10)
Status » Single
Gender » Male ♂
Birth Date » 20 / 07 / 91
Constellation » Cancer
Chinese Zodiac » Goat
♥ Emotional
♥ Sensitive
♥ Sensible
Wish upon a star ★
[ ] A joyful life ♥
[ ] Stop being moody ♥
[ ] A better appearance ♥
[ ] Excel in my studies ♥
[ ] Life would be meaningful ♥
[ ] Lead a better life ♥
[ ] Wouldn't be lonely ♥
"Cherish what you have now, before you lose its too late". A personal message adapted from my friend's personal message. It definately suits my uncle, which does not appreciate what is in front of him and yet, he is still doing the things which he thinks it's right for him to so.. Everything is going to fall apart in front of him soon. Yet, there is no sign of regret from him. Every family member of his is worried sick about him. He just didn't realise that we really care about him..
Overheard of alot of things. Recently there are just too many family problems happened. My father is just taking the pressure of my uncle too seriously until he is sick now and couldn't really sleep. Not only my father actually. There are others who are about the same too. Seeing my father in such condition, i feel the same way of being sad too. Just don't know what to say to calm him, but my mum kept on trying to ask him to leave this matter aside. I'm just so worried he would just be spacing out while driving or working and certain unwanted accident happens.. His temper is getting worse due to this incident and yet he still doesn' t want to leave this aside even for a moment. He is constantly spaking of this matter. A matter which i couldn't be involved in.
Some things just couldn't be placed in words. Only through sight or certain incidents that will really trigger him or make him to wake up.. My aunt was saying all those regrets of her marrying with him and such, after hearing them.. i just feel so sad for her and my mum is having the sour heart too.. She said she already had initial plans to divorce and bring he kids together with her to work and earn a living by herself.. I just really hope he would really wake up before something really happens.. A broken family is the worst thing in the kid's life and also future.
I just don't know what to do...
So, please enlighten yourself and try and find out who is actually caring about you and always there when ever you need them to give you strength, love and support. If you found them, lock them tight and do not let them go. Cheerish all he moments with them without regrets nor sorrows because its not worth missing any one of them because it's not easy to find such type of person in this current world anymore. Do not regret after taking such actions that would really destroy the hearts of those who care about you and regret after they leave your side. And for that, you will be regret for a very long time.
I really AM cheerishing all my moments with my parents, brother, family members and friends. Every single minute of it counts. No matter how hard we could get along in things sometimes. No matter how much i hate them or even feel sad about them, deep down i do care about them. I am cheerishing all the remaining ones i have left, couldn't lose anymore or even one away from me. Not sure what would be coming on to me in the future but im still trying to smile all the way till the end no matter how much it hurts =D
My brother called me just right after a sms o.o" I not good in sudden calls. Don't know what to talk haha. He asked me about the task he handed on me to do. I finished and i just said ok and end the conversation ._." LAME ME xD
I am proud to say that i've given up alot of things because i find that it's unnecessary. I've given up 3/4 of my gaming time to fill with something else.. Well, still trying to fill up with something meaningful though. Disallowing myself to step into cybercafes anymore. Controlling the amount of my money usage and also cutting down costs on my food expenses =D Thats alot of work. Still trying to keep my smile on no matter wha happens.
Until the day when i couldn't smile.. That would be a big problem..
Cut my hair, nobody realised. This is weird. LOL.
Just been sleeping everytime whenever im free. It's just like im having lack of sleep. Sometimes eventhough im so sleepy, when im in my bedroom, i just couldn't sleep. Sigh.. I think that's all i have to say today. Nitez.
♥ Silent Tears
What has been written ♥ ;
『3/30/2009 11:50:00 PM』
