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The loner ♥
Name » Alex
Age » 19 ('10)
Status » Single
Gender » Male ♂
Birth Date » 20 / 07 / 91
Constellation » Cancer
Chinese Zodiac » Goat
♥ Emotional
♥ Sensitive
♥ Sensible
Wish upon a star ★
[ ] A joyful life ♥
[ ] Stop being moody ♥
[ ] A better appearance ♥
[ ] Excel in my studies ♥
[ ] Life would be meaningful ♥
[ ] Lead a better life ♥
[ ] Wouldn't be lonely ♥
Sometimes~ i just wonder: -Why am i being so noisy evethough it doesnt make a difference? -Why am i being ignored by friends eventhough im trying to talk to them? -Why am i so shy to mix with new friends and shut tight like a clam? -Why am i labeled as a small kid eventhough im study on par with their education level? -Why am i to be taken as another stranger whenever or where ever i go? -Why must i have such sensitive emotions? -Why i cant stop think what others think about me? -Why i cant stop embarassing myself eventhough it is really bad? -Why others cannot tolerate with me? -Why am i always wrong? -Why do i have such little friends? -Why are they avoiding me somehow? -Why do i like to keep all the bitter memories and never even try to forget about it? -Why is all my bitter memories giving me flashbacks from time to time? -Why is it haunting me? -What have i done wrong? -Why i cant excel like the others in my class? -Why i cant be as smart as them? -Why must i be the odd one out? -Why do i put too much feelings into everything i do? -Why am i always bored and lonely? -Why do such 'lala' girls come and bother me? -Why do they want to break my heart by playing around with me? -Why do some girls just doesnt give up on me eventhough she is definately not my type and not my age? -Am i really that embarassing to be your friend? -Am i too noisy? -Am i bothering all my friends? -Am i somehow too annoying to be your friend? -Am i being buggy? -Am i too soft? -Am i being a transexual? -Have i done something which will made my parents happy? -Have i treated them well? -Have i treasure the moments with them? -Do i not fit to be your friend? -Dont i deserve to have a happy life? -Cant i have something which i desire so badly for years?
There are just so many unanswered questions which is running around my mind lately~ Hmm i wonder if there is more~ Well i've been thinking majorly lately is on how i treated my friends and how they treated me.. Well i dont think they are trying to ignore me but from what i feel they are trying to avaoid me because im being noisy or maybe im bothering them too much.. Why must my age be a factor in the college? What can you do about it if im the youngest among everyone? Do i not deserve to know what is going on? Am i not human? And why must they hurt me in such ways that are not supposed to be? They think they are older than me so they can bully me or use my age factor as a joke? My name can be used in a joke whenever they feel like it? Haihs i dont wanna think any furthur nites~ -1001 unanswered questions => a never ending discovery~-
♥ Silent Tears
What has been written ♥ ;
『10/29/2008 09:35:00 PM』
