- Tales of a loner ♥ ;

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Sometimes~ i just wonder:
-Why am i being so noisy evethough it doesnt make a difference?
-Why am i being ignored by friends eventhough im trying to talk to them?
-Why am i so shy to mix with new friends and shut tight like a clam?
-Why am i labeled as a small kid eventhough im study on par with their education level?
-Why am i to be taken as another stranger whenever or where ever i go?
-Why must i have such sensitive emotions?
-Why i cant stop think what others think about me?
-Why i cant stop embarassing myself eventhough it is really bad?
-Why others cannot tolerate with me?
-Why am i always wrong?
-Why do i have such little friends?
-Why are they avoiding me somehow?
-Why do i like to keep all the bitter memories and never even try to forget about it?
-Why is all my bitter memories giving me flashbacks from time to time?
-Why is it haunting me?
-What have i done wrong?
-Why i cant excel like the others in my class?
-Why i cant be as smart as them?
-Why must i be the odd one out?
-Why do i put too much feelings into everything i do?
-Why am i always bored and lonely?
-Why do such 'lala' girls come and bother me?
-Why do they want to break my heart by playing around with me?
-Why do some girls just doesnt give up on me eventhough she is definately not my type and not my age?
-Am i really that embarassing to be your friend?
-Am i too noisy?
-Am i bothering all my friends?
-Am i somehow too annoying to be your friend?
-Am i being buggy?
-Am i too soft?
-Am i being a transexual?
-Have i done something which will made my parents happy?
-Have i treated them well?
-Have i treasure the moments with them?
-Do i not fit to be your friend?
-Dont i deserve to have a happy life?
-Cant i have something which i desire so badly for years?

There are just so many unanswered questions which is running around my mind lately~ Hmm i wonder if there is more~ Well i've been thinking majorly lately is on how i treated my friends and how they treated me.. Well i dont think they are trying to ignore me but from what i feel they are trying to avaoid me because im being noisy or maybe im bothering them too much.. Why must my age be a factor in the college?
What can you do about it if im the youngest among everyone?
Do i not deserve to know what is going on?
Am i not human?
And why must they hurt me in such ways that are not supposed to be?
They think they are older than me so they can bully me or use my age factor as a joke?
My name can be used in a joke whenever they feel like it?
Haihs i dont wanna think any furthur nites~
-1001 unanswered questions => a never ending discovery~-

♥ Silent Tears
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『10/29/2008 09:35:00 PM』

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Sorry guys, its been awhile since i've blogged due to several reasons~ Well at 1st it is because of my wonderful assignment due(s) and the timetables are screwed up as well~ -.-~ Well everything 'SEEMED' too be 'fine' now well.. at least better than before and at least i have my chance to blog again x3! Well today it doesnt seem like a class at all xD~ Well the work for today in the DS (Data Structure) class was just to copy the codings from the book --> WEE and then understand the concept on how it worked~! But then.. Those codings itself took us 3 periods which is equals to the duration of our class.. BOHOO...~! Neways i was surprised when i overheard ivan is cmg over to have lunch with us~ So i was excited to meet him again as well~ :P But then somehow im too shy i couldnt speak up -_____________________- Well we had lunch near the old cinema in Klang town and its in stalls which is very hot and dry >_>" Well the food was ok but it was quite expensive though~ Well while we were eating we mingguled and we talked alot but i couldnt find a topic to talk to him so he was quite left out there >.> and suddenly 1 of the elderly nearby played those oldies song which somehow errie to me and to the others too then we started laughing and having a weird look at 1st~ lol~ Then the bananaman fetched me home~ xD Well that was about it about today~ (: Had a great time today :P Toodles!

♥ Silent Tears
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『10/28/2008 07:21:00 PM』

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Today nothing really happened it was a boring day~ I havent finish either 1 of my assignments and i am really frustrated of my assignment because its so damn complicated and hard to do but when i asked Miss Cheah which is 1 of the 2 assignments given by her~ She said it was so straight foward and easy~ *Sigh* So i stopped doing it and somehow tis my sister's turn to use the computer... I barely get to use the computer today~ Early in the morning went to Tesco~ Shopped 2 mamee duck flavour~ Thats all~ Then went back~! Watch TBeee and my sister continues using the computer~ About 6+ she finished using it then i finally get to use but we are going out to eat~ Psh.... Normally we would go out for dinner with my aunt and uncle and my little cute baby cousin~ And so we went out for dinner in Bekerly Garden~ We were quite lucky as once we arrived to the restaurant there werent much customers~ So once we ordered after 5 minutes the food arrived~! Now thats called service~! Unfortunately... the quantity of the food is OOH MY FISH... It's so little in quantity~ We barely get to eat much~ Only one of the dish is delicious the others are so so~ The one which is delicious is the one which has the least amount of quantity of food... While the least favourite dish had alot of meat in it~ Overall is satisfying but its not delicious...~ Well on our way home~ My aunt mentioned about food outlets and their killing prices and so i brought up the past about Starbucks coffee~ This happened last time~ When my grandma was discharged into Sunway Medical Center for an ear surgery and treatment~ So my family was there to visit my grandma so is my aunt which is my father's sister-in-law~ She was thirsty and wanted to have a drink of coffee after standing and talking so long~ (She is awfully stingy by the way) So she asked me to get down to the lobby and have a drink with her and her housemaid as well as my sister~ So we went down to Starbucks~ She told us to order anything we would like to drink so we said okay~ She was standing beside me and started ordering the drinks and such~ So i ordered rasphberry juice and my sis ordered mango juice~ And when everything is settle its time to pay the bill~ So the cashier told me its RM89.90~ So i told my aunt~ She siad "RM8.90?" I said no.. Its RM89.90 She was like WHAT?! And she paid because we ordered... So we went back to the seat and started drinking... She couldnt stop complaining~ Nagging and nagging~ She ordered cappuccino and so she said this cappuccino iznt nice and her housemaid ordered normal tea and her housemaid said the tea izint nice even the RM5 cheap tea which was manually cooked at home os way better than this cup of tea i was like -___________________-lll.. After we finished our drink we went up and my aunt couldnt stop complaining to her husband and to my parents and constantly stressing the amount needed to be paid~ Her husband was abit pissed with her nags and my father said why did i want to bring her down to such an expensive drink outlet which is expensive.. And i said owell she wanted a drink she i brought her to the nicest one in the hospital rather than those coffee making machines so after saying this everyone laughed including my uncle and aunt my parents couldnt stop laughing and not longer after that we reached home (: Once i reached home.. I wanted to push my guild points in SDO-X to the max but it seems that the SDO-X server is down or something.. I couldnt even get into the website nor the cleint which frustrates me alot UGH... Even till now its inacessible~ Fine! im going to bed nights guys~ (:

♥ Silent Tears
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『10/02/2008 11:10:00 PM』

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Assignments are somehow killing me :X Well actually i havent really finish them yet! Today i went to my uncle's house for hari raya and i ate quite alot of stuffz and today at first glance at a guy coming into the house~! I thought its my cousin sister's brother~ But its not! It's a NEW boyfriend of my cousin sister.. I was like O.O" Because my cousin sister's previous boyfriend looked completely different than this one... DOTZ... The previous 1 was tall, tanned, quiet, shy and only speaks chinese as compared to this 1~ he looked geeky :x, talkative, shorter than my cousin sis! O.O", speaks cantonese, active, white and uh.. shorter than my cousin sis! O.O" Overall everyone was shocked to see a new bf that my cousin sister had~ My sister at 1st sight straight away asked my mum about him~ My mum thought its the same old guy but he sorta had a make over.. But after comparing the characteristics, my mum had a conclusion that thats a new completely different guy LOL~ My uncle and auntie was puzzled and couldnt stop asking my cousin sister about this and my cousin sister only said "I've grown taller already" ahahahahahahahaa~ Swtness~ So it was the truth that she had changed to a new boyfriend~
Owell i just noticed i've been tagged by HY GRRRR~ Damn u hy!

TAGGED by HY(#@$#$%#@%#@%#@%#@$%#@$!)

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
I'll go nuts and emo all day until some time when i start to let it go i guess~

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
Get rid of the education system~! Burn those who i hate in hell~! (Thats only today's opinion everyday i have diff dreams to achieve =D)

3. What's you planning for this year's X'mas?
Scream like a mad guy at 12am sharp and started greeting every1 i know in games and spam smses~ LOL FYI~ Im not a christian~ LOL

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
I'll buy a err.... house that is surrounded by nature~ Have my PS2 and PS3 with unlimited supplies of new Games~ High Tech Advanced computer with umlimited supplies of games~ Buy a beautiful penthouse for my parents to stay and hire servants to serve them and make their live extremely heavenly~ The rest i just wan to keep it simple~

5. Will you u fall in love with your best friend?
All my best friend are guys............. *Change TOPIC* (Girls i had some)

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Being loved by some1 i guess :D LOVE ME PL0X!

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
I'll wait till she finally realises that a silly nutty guy is in love with her for a very long time and will continue until she accepts i guess

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Give up and emo i guess~

9. If you like to act with someone, who will it be?
I dont act~ *cries dramatically*

10. What takes you down the fastest?
Naggers, insulters, back stabbers, gossipers and a whole lot of weeetards

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
Studying like a nutso earn myself a decent life~

12. What’s your fear?
Pressure from work, studies and humuliation

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
He likes to tag me alot *whacks hy*

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
I'll uh... choose neither~ I wan to have a happy and satisfied life~

15. What’s the first thing you do when you wake up?

Morning already?! *Goes back to slp*

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
I'll be very loyal to my loved 1 and will not abandon her as long as i lived even if im dead~ (Woo dramatic)

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
*coughs* im loyal i only will have 1 in my mind / heart and soul UNLESS there are certain reasons

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
I FORGIVE *woooo claps* but never forgets

19.Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
Still considering about this fact Though

20.What do you think about life?

Hm... sarky currently and pressurized -.-

Well ima off to bed nights guys~ I will try to post much mroe often.. FISH u ASS-ignments!

♥ Silent Tears
What has been written ♥ ;
『10/01/2008 11:42:00 PM』

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