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The loner ♥
Name » Alex
Age » 19 ('10)
Status » Single
Gender » Male ♂
Birth Date » 20 / 07 / 91
Constellation » Cancer
Chinese Zodiac » Goat
♥ Emotional
♥ Sensitive
♥ Sensible
Wish upon a star ★
[ ] A joyful life ♥
[ ] Stop being moody ♥
[ ] A better appearance ♥
[ ] Excel in my studies ♥
[ ] Life would be meaningful ♥
[ ] Lead a better life ♥
[ ] Wouldn't be lonely ♥
Today was a moody + lonely day~ I finally met Ivan a good friend of mine whom i met in a maple story private server called DarkIceMS~ The server is filled with noobs now and its 3/4 dead~ (: Anyways i didnt realise its him when me and my friends went down for breakfast after class until he called Ivan here and my friend said "Eh.. your mandy friend is here leh you dont know him meh?" I was blurred out and somehow i dont have the courage to speak up.. Wanted to talk to him but im just too coward to do so~ Sigh~ So throughout the whole talk Ivan kept quiet and only a bunch of my friends and his since primary sch friend talked to him only~ I felt so sorry :(( I appologized to him after i went home yet i couldnt feel any better~ ~_~ Then after that i was supposed to have a class from 2-3.30pm but it was canceled and i realised that earlier before the first class ends~ So actually after the brunch i was heading home but my friends tempted me to go to the cc~ And so guess what~! I went -.-~ At first thought~ I thought Ivan was going so i thought i cant have some chance to talk to him and eventually become closer friends but i didnt expect that he is not coming~ =/ Anyways i played SDO as usual in the cc.. Today i made Rei angry.. This is because im jsut being too greedy somehow as he is giving me freebies.. I tried appologizing.. He never forgives.. I smsed the appology message he never replied.. Today he didnt even on his msn and i couldnt even meet him anywhere... I only know he logged out after he found out that im there in the SDO Aristocracy's room.. Twice.. Here is my personnal appology to Rei~ I'm sorry i've been a greedy jerk demanding so much as ive not appreciated what you have given me but sometimes people eventually becomes greedy.. I'm really sorry for that if you wouldnt want to accept my appology then i would be carrying this guilt until im 6 feet under and never rest in peace.. I Dont like to see some1 who is ignoring me or whom are mad at me because they couldnt forgive for what ive done.. Its just so sad and its a burden to my fragile heart.. Well.. The forgiveness is on your hands and its yours to decide.. Ive made an appology and if thats not good enough i might as well just leave SDO for good~ After i went home i felt the sudden loneliness and the emotional feeling is surrounding me~ It made me felt that all the games that are intresting to me seemed preety boring now and my msn most of those who i really wanted to talk to are offline ah well =/ Perhaps a good night's sleep would throw my emo-ness away~
♥ Silent Tears
What has been written ♥ ;
『9/12/2008 11:33:00 PM』
